Thought Lines

This assignment, since I chose to accept it is to free write without thinking or editing.  Even so, I titled this piece "Thought Lines."  So here I am at about the middle of my program with the bulk of my coursework behind me.  This writing class has really sparked some creativity in me.  Believe it or not, when I was in high school I was picked to be the future editor of the New York Times!  30 years later and I am finally tapping into my natural abilities.  Not that I have any real talent for writing, or even much along the lines of editing, but I like the creative process.  I used to write in journals then throw them away before they could be seen.  Or maybe I was afraid to re-read them and see who I was for myself.  I think I've been hesitant to commit my thoughts to paper in fear of being discovered.  So what's new today?  I have a laundry list of assignments to plow through this week.  Sometimes I think I can't do any one of them justice because they get lost in the pile.  I wish my classes were spread out more but my objective was to get as much done before high school football begins in August.  I adore my 3 boys and am blessed that they still want me to be a part of their stuff.  The balancing act between being their mom and working full time and school full time is worth the trickery.  They used to drain me (aka: suck the life out of me) but then someone told me that it was all in your approach to your service.  If you acted out of resentment and obligation you were going to drain.  If you acted out of love and caring you would replenish.  I don't always get it right but I love the irony that my teenagers are teaching me to get a better attitude.  So I'm feeling kind of melancholy, if you can't tell.  A little ho-hum about this post lacking wit and levity.  But this is me in this moment.